hypnotized by the rain

The rain's pouring Jakarta at 02.45 PM.
I was purposely left the house, going to terrace checking for the rain, oh storm..
The thunder was terrible! and the flash was lightning as sharp as blitz.
They seemed like calling me outside.
But suddenly my body became numb. Doing nothing and saying no words.
I don't know why. Maybe mourning for what I've been through.
I was just stunned and I just really wanted to clear my mind because I thought raindrops could flush and take away all the existing heavy burden in my tired mind and heart.
Do you think I was crying in the rain, eh? No, I wasn't cry.
I was just stand and still.
My body became wet. Alls been wet that way till I type it right now. It was cold outside.
Numb for at least 5 minutes like I lost my mind, 'till I got it and realized how pathetic I am.
-___- I had to go back to my room and hit the bath once more. Outside? It's still raining.

1 chance, no more

have you ever had negative thoughts? I'm sure everyone had. And are those negative thoughts bothering you? obviously yes!
Who wants to think negatively? No one! but I must say that the thought must be cast away.
Honestly, this thought is torturing me. I know this is the result of bad experiences in the past. What so called the 'trauma'.
Throwing away trauma is as difficult as to throw away phobias.
It takes the process and also takes time.
Everything is not as easy as turning back your palm.
I learned to throw away the trauma and these negative thoughts.
Having bad thoughts about someone you love because you're afraid of losing him or ɑ fear being lied by is normal I guess. Why do you call it possessive? I'm not possessive, never crossed into my mind to be a possessive. I was in the time you feel tired of my will to learn this process, you decide to give up and make it end. I was panic, I messed up.
My tears dropped unrestrained. Chaos!
I tried to convince you several times not to end this. I apologized many times. I promised that night to throw away all those negative shits. I learned. Until you reach the point "ok then its up to you"
I asked you to say something about your decision.
You gave me one chance, you said no more.
Oh thanks God. That's so meaningful for me. You can keep this promise "I promise not to think negatively"
Please don't go away I beg you. Don't give it up I love you no matter what, I will try to understand you in every way. Seriously, I've never been this way before.
You're the one. Thanks for the chance. Thank you for teaching me things I didn't get before, about TRUST and FAITH.

Tugas udah ya, jangan lagi ya

*Sigh* wait up pals, let me take ɑ deep breath. I've been sick and tired of these assignments! These 'duties' are like ɑ bomb that suddenly exploding onto your face. Can you imagine how cruel these tasks destroy you? I'm shocked, seriously.
What I can't even give ɑ tolerance is there are our lecturers who-can't-be-mentioned gave us ɑ task that should be given in only ɑ week. I don't mind about the paper but gooossh! You gave it in the middle of my chaotic condition where there are lotta unfinished task. Hey, you even come rarely to our class how could you say and think you have given that ASSignment??!
I don't talk about 'ɑn individual' but actually 'people'
Finally, love it or not, happy or unhappy, full spirit or tired, we as ɑ student have got to finish it.
I've been ɑ procrastinator just to escape from all those shits but apparently I will always end up as an executor for my own dutiesss.

Hello 2011

This is my first post in this new year, yeah 2011 spirit!!
I just wanna share a little story of what was happened in the end of 'twenty ten'
Once I lost my money and had to witness bad occurrences I was afraid if I should face a bad new year eve. It happened, true! But I kept myself to be sure that its just a little rock. A little rock won't make me stumbled.
Lucky me I was going through the end of 2010 and the beginning of 2011 with a man who is at that time I called 'The toughest man ever'
Because I found when all problems and all people seemed attacking him, he is still survive. -At that time- I didn't mean to call him only at that time, but he was lil bit angry and said that he's just not that tough. In my mind I said "Well, okay I will not call you the toughest man later if its just reminding you about another weakness"
Forget about what was happened in the past, don't bring all the bad things in 2010 into this new year. It has end. let's just enjoy tomorrow. Hey, happiness is just a couple of dots away!

Can I name it 'untitled' ?

“Aku kan kuat, berlayar di laut.. Ntar nemuin pulau yg ga berpenghuni trus tinggal disana”

“oh ya? Sendirian dong?”

“ga, berdua..”

“berdua? Sama siapa?”

“....... sama kamu”

“..........................”

“hm, tapi kayanya kamu ga mau”

“hah kenapa ga mau? Aku mau kok. Mau bangeett”

Fussing?

Me: “yeee. Ok done!”

NN: “What u mean by 'ok done'? please don't mope”

Me: “Well, its clear. It means no need to have a talk everyday,eh?”

NN: “What? i'm confused:-/”

Me: “I'm bothering. All i do is just disturbing you.”

NN: “Bothering me? Never!”

Me: “Maybe i aint bother but u're too lazy listening to my useless talks, ryt? For you maybe better have a talk with other who's more important”

NN: “gosh! no, I didn't mean like that. Like what u said. It's just hard for me idk where to start. I apologize..please don't be angry:-( ”

Me: “nah, I feel you're not unable. You just dont want to. I'm right. Ain't I? or wrong?”

NN: “NO! You're wrong.”

................

Damn Down Damn Down!

Don't lie please don't tell me lies. Cause I know you're not a liar. Your deeds sometimes get me down but I suddenly got a boost of confidence when you turn a favor. I always use some of my hidden strength to get up. I can't even stand up. Wow, i'm that weak compared to little ants! For a brand new ending I'm doing this, you know i'm fighting.
I AM I AM I AM I AM. there's no You ARE. Am I the only one fighting?
Kindness collapsed. Ignoring is fun? Eh?
But ah..Rather than hold onto broken dreams i'm just hold onto LOVE.

Giving, understanding, and caring for you are my truly desire. I ain't expect for your favors. Notice it: I always be here whenever you need.

When A Stranger Become One of Your Greatest Motivator

Kenapa gue milih buat nulis judul ini dalam bahasa inggris, karena kalau itu judul diartikan dalam bahasa Indonesia jatohnya bakalan agak sedikit jahat pada kata ‘stranger’.
As a matter of fact, stranger means :
• a person whom one does not know or with whom one is not
• a person who does not know, or is not known in, a particular place or community. Actually gue lebih milih buat tidak mengartikan stranger itu sebagai “orang asing yang tidak dikenal” yaa di postingan ini gue mengkonotasinya sebagai orang yang “tadinya ga diketahui apa apa tentang dia sekarang udah jadi kaya keluarga dan teman sendiri even belum face to face” Got it?

Ya gue anggap ngerti lah ya jadi gue tinggal cerita doang nih. Begini ceritanya, di microblog yang gue sebut twitter, dari awal gue buat sekitar bulan maret atau mei yah? Lupa. yang jelas kalo ga maret mei itu, udah lama banget gue follow kakak mahasiswa yang juga sebagai BEM di salah satu perguruan tinggi di Bandung. Namanya Kak Putra. gue selalu ketawa bahagia tiap ngeledekin Kak Pet-nama panggilannya- dengan kata BEM *penekanan pada kata BEM* apalagi dengan penambahan fakultasnya yang panjang itu dan kak Pet pasti kesel. Gatau kenapa, padahal menurut gue menjadi Badan Eksekutif Mahasiswa itu suatu hal yang membanggakan loh.

Okay jadi kenapa gue bikin judul diatas dan gue ngebahas kakak yang paling baik dan ngocol itu, yap! He is one of my greatest motivator. Juga udah gue anggep kayak kk beneran sendiri. Curhat iya, nanya apa-apa ke kak Pet iya, sampe becandaan yg absurd juga. Tweet nya yang bilang begini ke gue → “See you in UK!”
dan juga pas gue nanya tentang sesuatu yang berhubungan dengan Indeks Prestasi atau yang sering disebut dengan IP trus terakhir ya gue emang cuma berserah dan bilang “Ooh gitu. Tetep ga ngerti -.- yaudahlah kak, yang penting gue belajar aja dulu yang bener”
dan lagi lagi balasan kata-katanya Kak Pet jadi harus words banget! → “hehe iya Ver. You know, remember our talk back then about UK? I’ll see you there ☺”


buat gue kata-kata nya kak Pet kaya me-motivate gue sekaligus ngasih gue tantangan buat HARUS BISA mencapai apa yang gue cita-citain. Makanya gue tulis di post it notes dan ditempel di setiap buku kuliah. Niat ya? emang! jadi kalo males bisa inget terus harus belajar. As you see in my book I wrote that words.

Well gue emang baru 1bulanan ngejalanin dunia baru yg gue sebut ‘perkuliahan’ tapi nanti gue mau buktiin kalo apa yang gue omongin yang cita-cita gue harus bisa ‘traveling keliling dunia dan ngajak papa sama mama’ itu harus bisa terwujud.
Oh iya, ngeliat kak Putra sukses di UK juga! :D Kalo juga ga sukses seperti apa yang orang-orang asumsikan atau bayangkan, ya at least dengan segala kecukupan pasti harus bisa di UK. Also Paris! yeaaah I always dream to make my parents’ hands touching The Eiffel tower, seeing big old Oak Tree and having house with a wide green grass land.

Gue percaya sama quotesnya motivator yg begini: “Kenyataan hari ini adalah mimpi di masa lalu…”
Iya sih, bener juga “orang yang paling miskin di dunia ini adalah mereka yang tidak lagi dapat bermimpi”

Jeremia 29:11 “ For I know the plans I have for you” declares The Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and future”

'1000 burung kertas' Bedtime Story from Rizhadi Adit

This is a story that force me to sleep, got little mistakes and simplicity but it works! :

“Ada 2 pasang kekasih yang sangat bahagia,keduanya hidup dikeluarga yang sederhana.
Suatu hari si perempuan bilang kepada kekasihnya bahwa dia ingin berpisah karena ingin hidup dgn laki2 yang lebih sukses.
Si laki-laki itu lalu patah hati. dia menjadi lebih giat bekerja,dari usaha kecil dia menabung,seringkali ditipu, tetapi dia bangkit lagi dan akhirnya dia menjadi sukses setelah beberapa tahun.
Disuatu hari yang hujan,si laki2 melihat orang tua si perempuan dari dalam mobilnya.
Lalu diapun turun untuk mengikuti kemana perginya kedua orang itu.
tiba-tiba dua orang tua itu masuk ke pemakaman dan betapa terkejutnya lelaki itu begitu dia tau mantan kekasihnyalah yang meninggal karena penyakit keras yg dideritanya sebelum mereka berpisah.
Orang tuanya memberi surat kepada si lelaki dari si perempuan yg berisi permintaan maaf dan ingin si laki2 hidup sukses.
si laki2pun menangis dan berlutut dimakam kekasihnya.
Orang tua si perempuan memberikan 1000 burung kertas buatan si perempuan yg berisi kata cinta kepada si laki2 sbg ucapan perpisahan...”

Going through it all, move on!

Well pals, its been a year i didn't even touch this blog haha actually since the first month on 2010 i posted a post.
Okay, hemm.... Where should I begin it all? Woaaahh i have lotta stories to tell 'till i confused where i've to start from. Hahaha :D

I agree with what agnes monica says on Chitato advertisement "LIFE IS NEVER FLAT"
On March, April and May I was feel butterflies but at that time I was in misery as well.
3 months that taught me to distinguish the differences between friend or lover.
The boy who was surrounding my mind, as the time went by and more expectation I wished but he didn't even realize my feeling. Finally I reached the point where I ought to say it first. Ok i told him that what i feel is more than just a friend.
Aaaaaahhh.. Can you imagine it? I'm a girl and i tell that boy about my feeling. Rrrrhh i felt terrible at that time.
Lucky me he could understand about it, but from "reviewing all files i got", I decided not to text/phone him again.
We were lose contact for two or three weeks but he 'poke' me by his tweet.
Guess what I got? I'VE GOT MY FRIEND BACK!!
Its good somehow after I told him and i guess we won't talk anymore finally I feel happy that he's still my bestfriend!
I'm definitely truly happy that we are friends till now :)

in the end of May and on the begining of June
I found a new guy. Lil bit annoying at the first I guess its his habit, he feels that he's cool yeah maybe..
He used to text me everyday
We were asking about what was happened in each other daily activities.
I never had a thought that he'd be my boyfriend but this is what occured on June.
Though he's very very nice, we were happy at that time but.... he did break it for some reasons. What i mean by 'reason' is till now i can't understand how could he make it as the reasons?
We were together, it took a month.. Its a short time but..... ah forget it

Gossshh i was terrible when he said it all over. So much tear drops i couldn't handle.

I tried to live July but it only become worst.
As he tried to flirt to another girls I look in to myself, why did I have to stay on this position.
So many sounds shouted that "YOU HAVE TO MOVE ON VER!"
it's like hemm, O-f*ckin-KAY, i'll try to move on.
Now he's in his relationship with idk who the hell she is.
Hey, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN! Not anymore hahaha im moving on ryt? :D

As the time goes by I found a lot of lessons. All that happenned is teaching us a lesson, realize it guys!

The keys are: Forgive, Forget, Fully sincere

Oh, one more thing you should know:
Look at yourself pals, after all this time, after all tears wasted, and all that burn your mind and time, YOU'RE STILL HAVING LIFE AND YOU'VE GONE THROUGH IT ALL BY YOUR OWN-F*CKIN-SELF !
You are tougher than you know,
Say it to those jerks -->“C'mon hurt me as hard as you can, but one thing you should know that I will not give up, I will not be broken, I'll live it all”

Don't dwell on what was, cause the past is still the past ☺

Goodbye little brown R.I.P Brown 211209

Perjalanan saya ke anyer untuk photoshoot buku tahunan di nodai oleh berita duka yg cukup mengagetkan.
tanggal 21 Desember 2009 tepat saat ulang tahun kakak.
Kira-kira jam 9 adek saya ng'sms isi smsnya spt ini : "vero brown meninggal!!"
trus saya bls menyanyakan kenapa bisa mati dsb dsb.
Jam 9 itu saya dan teman2 macrofista masih di bus kira2 di pertengahan jalan menuju anyer.
Kaget dengernya,sedih,bingung. Ah gatau lagi kaya gimana persaan waktu kemarin.
adek juga ngabarin kalau papa sempat dikatain 'an*ing' sama yg nabrak.
Dari kabar itu gue menyimpulkan kalau: pasti sempat terjadi keributan dirumah.
Sumpah bingung banget kemarin itu.
Trus langsung lah saya ngomong ke selin pertamanya. "Sel,brown mati"
Tapi karena ga tahan mata udah perih, alhasil nangis lah saya di bus sejadi-jadinya!
Ya, teman-teman yg lain khususnya yg duduk di bus bagian belakang kaget kenapa saya nangis gitu.
Selin nanya: "ver,lo nangis?"
Gatau lagi harus ngomong apa yg jelas yg saya tau saat itu cuma sedih. Sedih banget.
Tapi amazed banget sama tmn2 semua mereka coba buat ngehibur.
Seperti postingan photo saya sebelum-sebelum ini yg bang piet sampai main boneka di depan saya krn saat di bus dis duduk disamping saya dan ngomong banyak, selin meluk, wahyu nanyi pke gitar lagu yg liriknya serahkanlah serahkanlah apaaa gitu lupa..
Huhuuu thankies ya my bestiest :')
I really appreciate it and I won't forget it.

Pas sampai ke rumah, mama cerita dengan suara pelan, "vero,si brown udah ga ada kan" languidly gitu lah nyeritainnya.
Josua adik saya nangis inget brown.
Conny emosi menceritakan kalau yg nabrak juga nyolot apalagi adik iparnya itu.. Terlalu panjang kalau diceritakan gimana mereka sempet ribut pagi2nya.
Yg jelas papa yg ga tahan ngeliat darah dan shock karena dia ngeliat langsung si brown ditabrak sama mobil itu.
Papa memang ga tahan kalau ngeliat celaka darah begitu.
Nuntut keadilan dr si penabrak pun seperti setengah daya.
Mama dan kakak yg banyak membentak mereka.
SIM supirnya sudah dipegang.
Kita minta ganti anjing yg sama.
Duit? Engga! Walaupun harga anjing chihuahua yg se brown itu sudah mencapai 4juta.
Tapi sampai postingan ini saya turunkan si penabrak brengsek itu belum ngehubungin.
Mudah-mudahan dia ga lepas tanggung jawab.
Biar Tuhan yg balas, karena balasan Tuhan buat umatnya yg salah pasti lebih 'pantas'.

Kematian brown ini sebelumya udah banyak pertanda.
Contohnya:
1. Dari hari kamis perasaan saya sudah ga enak ttg hari senin 21. saya kira bakal terjadi apa-apa di perjalanan, karena bertepatan dgn kepergian macrofista ke anyer. Ternyata itu hari perginya si brown.
2.Sekitar 3malam lalu kk pulang dia cerita kalau tetangga ada yg rumahnya kemalingan. Trus saya menyeletuk: "wah, ma, kita harus cari anjing baru nih buat jaga rumah"
3. Sehari sebelum brown mati ada anak kecil lewat didepan rumah sama mbaknya. Mbaknya nanya mana anjingnya? Anak kecil iti nyeletuk: anjingnya udah meninggal.
4. Makanan kaleng brown habis dan 2 hari ga dibeli (yah mgkn memang sudah "tidak usah dibeli lagi,sudah dekat" )
5. Brown disuapin dan ngabisin biskuitnya. Padahal biasanya dia ga mau.
(mgkn brown mau nunjukin kalau biskuitnya ga boleh sia2. Harus habis seiring dengan habisnya nyawanya)

Dang!!

Kalau firasat yg kuat dgn petunjuk-petunjuk yg ada ternyata bisa 'berbicara',
Menyadarinya adalah penyesalan terbesar tidak bisa mencegah.

mungkin buat kalian atau sebagian orang berpikir ah cuma anjing yg mati.
Tapi brown udah bawa banyak memori buat kita.
Dia seperti memilih sendiri tanggal perginya.
211209 jam 9 tepat saat ulang tahun kakak saya.
Dan kaki kakak saya yg sakit keseleo jadi sembuh karena secara sontak dia mengejar mobil yg sempat mau kabur pas nabrak brown.

Karena brown sepertinya sudah memilih sendiri tanggal perginya. Agar diingat, dia ditabrak sepertinya sebagai hadiah dia rela agar kaki kakak saya sembuh dgn mengejar penabraknya.

Anjing chihuahua kesayangan kami mati konyol ditabrak mobil.
TOYOTA AVANZA - WARNA HITAM - NO PLAT: F 1267 WH

Goodbye our little brown. Too much memories you had bring for us.
A huge impressions on your jump, every step, and lick.

REST IN PEACE , Brown :")

We love you ♥

Orang Tua

Orang tua, atinya buat Kalian apa?
Coba flashback,
mereka menganggap kita segalanya.
Mungkin kita sering banding2in mama papa kita sama orang tua lain.tp percaya,ga akan ada yg bisa kaya mereka..
ga akan ada yg bisa ngelakuin apa yg udah mereka lakuin buat kita.
Inget ga pas kalian masih kecil,pas kalian jatuh atau terluka atau kepentok dsb siapa yg langsung berlari ke arah kalian buat ngangkat dr tanah? Dan yg menyeka air mata anak kecil -saat kalian nangis dulu- siapa?
Mama papa kalian kan?

Inget saat lo udah ngerasa nyerah ga ada lagi yg bisa lo lakukan sebagai seorang manusia,, yg ngasih kenyamanan dan ada di deket lo itu mama ataupun papa kalian!...
Mereka seperti ngasih kekuatan saat kita lg di dalam masa susah, mikir kalo ga ada lagi yg bisa dilakukan
mereka selalu ada menghampiri dan bilang kalo gue pasti bisa nghadapin semuanya. "kamu pasti bisa ver"
Mereka kasih semangat buat terus GO ON!!
Mama selalu ngingetin saat aku salah.
nasihat, teguran, bahkan omelan semua itu semata-mata karena mereka sayang dan ga mau kita tersesat.
Mama juga selalu bilang, "kalian tuh belajar yg baik, kalau kalian sukses itu buat kalian bukan buat mama ataupun papa"
dan gw pasti selalu sedih tiap mereka ngomong gitu,, saat mereka blg: "yaah paling papa sm mama tuh kalau sudah engga ada, kalian yg penting sukses. Makanya belajar yg baik"

Gue sadar setiap rupiah yg mereka kasih buat keperluan gue, sekolah, jajan, belanja, main2, dan semua semua nya itu semata-mata buat bahagiain gw, buat masa depan gw.
Mereka sering cerita gimana dulu papa pernah nangis karena ga ada uang buat papa sekolah dulu,,wlaupun akhirnya ya papa bisa lulus kuliah. makanya dia blg: "kalau sekarang kalian main2 maah mau gimana jadi apa?"

Hmm kalian mungkin ga pernah terpikir kalau di doa mereka ada nama kita dan saat itu mereka nangis mikirin kita.

Air mata mereka terlalu mahal buat mengalir demia anak -yg blm bisa ngasih apa2-
Sedih kalau inget perjuangan mereka.
Pengorbanan buat sekolahin nghidupin dan ngeladenin anak yg menurut gw -belum bisa apa2 buat bikin mereka bangga-

Entah udah berapa kali gw menyeka air mata pas nulis postingan ini.
Ma,pa aku cuma pngen kalian tau: "aku sayang mama papa.."
Kasih sayang kalian adalah perwakilan kasih sayang Tuhan..

Please banget, sayangi orangtua kalian...

Graduation Yang Membawa Ke Sadarnya Gue

Waktu itu gue inget mama ga bisa datang ke graduation pas SMP. semua temen-temen datang sama ortunya dan gw dianter sendiri, siap2in semuanya sendiri.
Sampai saat saat dimana bu Yohana (kepala sekolah SMP) ngumumin bahwa angkatan gue lulus 100% , disitu semua pd nangis.
Pas pengumuman juara atau peringkat nilai UAN terbaik gue ga nyangka kalau gue adalah nilai terbaik utk mata pelajaran B.Inggris di angkatan.
Gw dpt 9 koma berapa gitu *lupa.
Memang bukan dpt 100 tapi itu yg terbaik.

Lalu juara2 nilai terbaik disuruh maju ke depan dan disitu Bu Yoh ngomong: "iya bisa didampingi orang tuanya silahkan ke depan"
Yak, didampingi orang tua!!
Semua tmn gue yg dipanggil ke depan orangtuanya maju, yaaah walaupun ada yg cuma bokapnya maju, atau cuma nyokapnya.
At least mereka didampingi.
Mata gue nyari2 di deretan kursi orang tua tapi ga juga nemuin bokap ataupun nyokap gue.
Yaa, gue tau mereka ga bisa datang saat itu karena ada keperluan lain.
yaudah mau gimana lagi, didepan gue diri sendiri, tp Ma'am Lidya (guru b.inggris) akhirnya yg ngedampingin gue didepan.

Dalam hati gue ngomong "andai aja ada mama ataupun papa disini, nilai ini buat kalian. Gue diri di depan ini buat bikin kalian bangga ma, pa.." sambil dikasih piala pas waktu itu juga.

Pulangnya gue umpetin itu piala dibelakang punggung, pas nyokap nanya gimana graduationnya gue bilang yaah biasa aja.. Pas gue kasih tunjuk itu piala dan gue ceritain tentang nilai, nyokap reaksinya ga lebay2 bgt sih, ga sampe loncat loncat teriak gitu haha yaiyalah. tapi gue tau dia seneng.

Bokap gue bukan orang yg ekspresif. Gue tau dia seneng walaupun cuma sekedar blg "Nah gitu dong! memang harus gitu yg namanya pelajar"
Nyokap yaa lumayan ekspresif lah..
Sampai saat ini gue sadar banget belom bisa kasih apa apa. Sesuatu yg berarti gitu! Ga ada. di SMA nilai gw selalu pas-pas an..
Teringat UN yg tinggal beberapa bulan lagi.
Tersiksa yaah kalo inget UN, tapi inget papa mama gue sering nangis sendiri..belajar macam apa kaya gini? Gimana bs bahagiain ortu?
Harus punya perseverance ver, buat bikin papa mama bahagia..

Please bgt buat kalian dengerin lagunya: Boys II men - A Song for Mama

Itu bakal nyadarin kalian betapa perjuangan orang tua kalian selama ini, bukan buat mereka tp buat lo..

My 1st election

Jadi pas election kemarin tuh gue gatau for whom i must put my checkmark.
Then pas udah nyampe di TPS trus dikasih kertasnya. Gue jalan ke apa ya namanya?kayak semacam chamber gitu lah,while my mom and sista had already there.. Approximately 3meters lagi, while i'm pacing the 'ink man' beside*lol Saat itu juga gue masih gatau bingung mau nyontreng siapa.. Pas gue tanya "mom,i am confused,siapa ni?"
"Ka, lo plih siapa? " They didn't answer my question. Dang! Eh,kaka ngomong bilang 'sby'
Huahaihaha dan karna trlalu bingungnya gue malah ngakak di chamber itu. soalnya lucu aja kelakuan kayanya goblok bgt. Huahahaha.
Finaly, yaudah asal asalan aja, lanjutkan! Itu jg karna when on my way smpet tweeting dan baca @alditsasadega bilang dia pilih yang in the middle. Same choice with him doesn't matter lah yaa